It starts before he wakes up. I slip off the couch, wrap myself in a blanket, and settle in with my Bible before the house gets loud. The coffee is already made — I set it the night before, because I know myself. Outside, the backyard is just a suggestion in the dark, the raised beds and flower borders barely visible.
I did not always do this. For a while after he was born, I told myself quiet time would happen later — after nap, after bedtime, after things calmed down. Later never came. The day would fill itself up, as days do, and I would fall into bed having spoken to everyone except the One who mattered most.
A woman at our church once told me: 'Give God the first of your day, not the leftovers.' I have thought about that almost every morning since. There is something about the early hours that feels unguarded. The to-do list has not yet assembled itself into a wall. It is just me and the Lord and the quiet couch and my coffee.
My practice is simple. I open my Bible — usually wherever I left off the day before — and I read slowly. Not to get through chapters, but to let a verse or two settle into me. Then I write a few lines in a small journal. What I noticed. What I am grateful for. What I am carrying. It is not fancy. Some mornings it is barely legible.
But here is what I have found: the days I begin this way are different. Not easier, necessarily. My boy still has big feelings before 8 a.m. The laundry still piles up. But there is a thread of steadiness running through those days that I cannot manufacture any other way. It is the difference between facing the day alone and facing it accompanied.
If you have been meaning to start a morning practice and keep putting it off, I want to encourage you gently: start small. Five minutes. A single verse. A one-sentence prayer. God is not waiting for you to be impressive. He is just waiting for you to show up.